little things

[kisses that never were]

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 22:20:04 +0100

[kisses that never were]

lanaprrilla: tv show meme ❝One day, you’ll ask me to speak of...

Wed, 29 May 2013 23:24:30 +0100

tv show meme

❝One day, you’ll ask me to speak of a truth - of the miracle of your birth. To explain what is unexplained. And if I falter or fail on this day, know there is an answer, my child, a sacred imperishable truth, but one you may never hope to find alone…❞

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↳ Trust No1 (The X-Files)

lazaire: The episode where they plan to have babies together...

Wed, 29 May 2013 23:17:23 +0100

lazaire:

The episode where they plan to have babies together and live happily ever after in a house in the woods. Well, if you look very closely :)

allthingseurope: Lake Annecy, France via

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 10:38:18 +0100

allthingseurope:

Lake Annecy, France via

the-beauty-of-words-blog: This post has been featured on a...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 10:26:58 +0100

the-beauty-of-words-blog:

This post has been featured on a 1000notes.com blog.

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Mon, 29 Apr 2013 10:21:50 +0100

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Mon, 08 Apr 2013 22:55:41 +0100

brb-fan-girling: I don’t care if I have 12 books I haven’t read yet. I need more.

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 22:48:29 +0100

brb-fan-girling:

I don’t care if I have 12 books I haven’t read yet. I need more.

Special Agent John Doggett Appreciation → 8x18 Three Words

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 22:46:05 +0100

Special Agent John Doggett Appreciation → 8x18 Three Words

souls-entwined: ^ (by eduardoizq)

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 18:41:57 +0100

souls-entwined:

^ (by eduardoizq)

The X-Files as a comedy which it actually is

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 18:36:31 +0100

The X-Files as a comedy ~~which it actually is~~

A Little Bit of a Big Goal

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 18:30:47 +0100

Recently I’ve been longing to slow down the pace a little and enjoy every moment as fully as possible. I don’t mean that I don’t want excitement and energy, but I’ve found that a large portion of my time is spent rushing over an activity so I can move on to the next one, or merely living my day as if I’m going through the motions. By slowing down the pace, I’ll savour every moment instead of just letting them pass me by. My life is by no means boring, I’m just approaching it almost as if it were.

I am aware there will be less pleasurable moments I will want to simply fast forward. But these crop up so little compared to the every day ‘stuff’ that it so easy to automatically approach with barely any enthusiasm. It may sound extreme, but I want to enjoy fully every mouthful of food I take, every conversation I partake in, every word I read and every part of nature I experience. Being in an environment where I encounter people every day, I find it so easy to forget the value of a good conversation I end up rushing pleasantries with people because I am aware of somewhere else I want to be or something else I was planning to do. And being fortunate enough to live somewhere with spectacular scenery, I question whether I simply take the views and being outdoors for granted, or if I really do take note of them and thus completely appreciate them. I find that I often get far too used to my surroundings and having people constantly around me, therefore losing out on a lot of joy I could experience because of them.

I am aware my time at college will be short and I therefore want to get the most out of it so that I don’t look back and regret the things I didn’t enjoy. I hear people talking a lot about finding something they are passionate enough about that it gets them out of bed in the morning fired up with excitement. I want to wake up in the morning not prolonging the amount of time I can get away with staying in bed before I absolutely have to get up, but bursting with anticipation and joy at the prospect of a fresh day ahead of me.

I realise this is a big goal. And won’t be easy. And won’t always happen. I will have tired days, bad days and days which will bring trouble or unusually awful news. But I believe that starting a new day with a positive outlook will help me tackle the challenges of the day as well as enjoying the pleasures. And in terms of slowing the pace down; it will take a lot of conscious time to make a radical change, but it I think it is worth making the effort every single time I remember to slow down to do it, so that it eventually becomes ingrained in me.

Here at college I get a lot of stimuli every day; lots to consider and process. Some just isn’t relevant to me, but I don’t want to miss out on the things that do impact me. I want to experience them whole heartedly and with a complete sense of the moment. I hope I can grasp the art of this; it seems like a pretty brilliant way to live.

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Wed, 03 Apr 2013 18:27:17 +0100

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Wed, 03 Apr 2013 18:26:00 +0100

so, umm…i may have dropped off the tumblr-sphere for a short while, despite promising not...

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 18:25:26 +0100

so, umm…i may have dropped off the tumblr-sphere for a short while, despite promising not to…i want to blame college papers for this but that would be weak.

sorry tumblr!

Mulder: Happy New Year, Scully. Scully: Happy New Year,...

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 16:41:15 +0000

Mulder: Happy New Year, Scully.

Scully: Happy New Year, Mulder.

too much popcorn

Fri, 28 Dec 2012 15:23:41 +0000

So I ate far too much popcorn at the cinema last night (despite the Christmas food excess alread taking its toll on my body) and now I feel rough. In all honesty, there was a part of my that new I’d wake up suffering like this because I know that if I eat after a certain time in the evening, it wrecks havoc with my stomach the next day. Especially if it’s copious amounts of popcorn I’ve eaten. So I’m not going to feel sorry for myself this morning, but instead take a voluntary fast until dinner.

However, the situation has prompted me to ponder how, despite awareness of impending consequences, sometimes something is just so tempting, it has to be done. The thrill or pleasure of the moment becomes the primary focus; all thoughts of the the follow-up are disregarded. I don’t mean that I am reckless in the traditional sense of the word, for example I prefer not to seek thrills by throwing myself off buildings or speed racing. But I do tend to by a tad wild when it comes to conventional things, such as shopping, eating and (sometimes, shamefully) drinking. I think that’s pretty standard for most women my age, although I can’t help wondering if I should start being a little bit more responsible, even a little things. Because there is something empowering about saying no to something knowing some kind of benefit will follow. The thought of having the sense to think ahead is quite attractive. For example, impulse buying a new dress may be great first but waking up the next day with a massive hole in my monthly funds completely erases that joy. However, being able to wake up knowing I kept the money for something more important would feel like an achievement. Likewise, if I’d woken up this feeling healthy as opposed to staying in bed trying to sleep off the feeling of a boulder in my belly, I probably would have been pretty pleased with myself. Although popcorn tastes good and goes with a movie like Prince William goes with Kate. And I deserve a little treat now and again (ie a new dress) right?

I think perhaps it’s about balance. Keeping one eye ahead but not missing out on those moments that really count. Not depriving oneself but also being sensible. And not falling into a pity party every time I bear the consequences of a previous ill made decision.

Also, I just broke my ‘voluntary fast’ by eating cake. With cream. Oh dear.

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Thu, 27 Dec 2012 13:47:07 +0000

it's the end of the year nearly already?

Thu, 27 Dec 2012 13:44:37 +0000

wow! what a manic year! i’m finishing in a completely different place to where i started, which is a good good thing. i can’t believe what a journey 2012 has been, but if i finish 2013 as happy as i am now at the end of 2012, then whatever comes may way in the next 12 months will be worth it!

in the true spirit of sharing, i thought i’d post my new year’s resolutions:

*Work out at least twice a week

*Allow at least three weeks for each college paper

*Take a camera with me wherever I go, and take lots of photos!

*Write down my musings, and blog at least twice a month

*Spend at least an hour each weekday in personal study (reading, research etc.)

*Perform at college open mic night

*Spend within my means and not get overdrawn again!

*Practice violin at least once a week

*Find time to read for pleasure

*Find a suitable activity to occupy summer break

*Read Bible in a year every day and spend daily time with God

yes, blogging more often is on there. sorry followers, i will make more effort from now on than i have been recently!

i hope 2013 will be a wonderful year for you all x

m

Thu, 22 Nov 2012 19:59:03 +0000